It's so much more than that and he can't even explain. He sighs, shoulders slumping a little.

"Hard," he says. "When I first enlisted, it was the first time I'd ever been away from home honestly. Hated the place, but I missed it like crazy at first. Like a- an ache I couldn't shake. And it's tiring. Even just buying food is more difficult because you don't know where to go. You have to throw yourself into the unknown just to find a cup of coffee."