[LOG] A Day In The Park

[baruthumos]

Who: Omega, Tex, open
What: Taking the kids to the park for some family bonding
Where: The park near the Ai house
When: 4/3, afternoon
Warnings: none


Grocery shopping with three children hadn't been the most fun, but they survived and got everything off the list. They even dropped it off at home and put it away without distracting Delta too much. But Omega knew that wouldn't last, so he'd planned on taking them to the park.

He'd invited Tex too, if she wanted to come. So instead of joining the twins in the sand pit, he hung around the table near the entrance, where he could keep an eye on anyone who came in, Theta on his skateboard, and the twins all at once.

She was going to come, he was sure. Or call, there could be an emergency, but she'd at least call. He could trust her that much.

Comments

[soldierinblack]

"With the age difference, how much do they realize that?" she asks. She doubts the twins see much of a difference between 'big brother' and 'parent' with their family situation.

[baruthumos]

Omega watches the twins get back in the sandbox together. "They know," he insists. "I would be a terrible father."

[soldierinblack]

"You keep them safe and have stuck around despite all the crap being thrown at you. Can't be any worse than the father that left," she replies as she leans back against the edge of the table.

[baruthumos]

Is she making fun of him? "Have we met? I'm the one with the temper, Sigma's the one who got stabbed, and I certainly haven't had anything worse than a teddy bear thrown at me."

He shrugs and folds his arms. "And he didn't leave. He wasn't there. Price got thrown out, Alpha got taken. How was I supposed to leave?"

[soldierinblack]

She rolls her eyes. "What does Sigma have to do with this? And that's the point. You could have left easily, but you give a damn. That's a good thing. I refuse to believe Price is our father, which means he's somewhere out there and dumped the asshole on us."

[baruthumos]

"Didn't exactly keep him safe, did I?" Omega checks on the twins, on Theta. "Price made it very clear he was not our father. That our parents didn't want us."

So why did they keep having kids? For a while, Omega had thought they wanted a girl, until Eta showed up.

[soldierinblack]

"He's still breathing, isn't he? Can't stop everything from happening, but I bet things would have gone to shit sooner if they didn't have you around." Why is he arguing so hard with her?

"I'm trying to give you credit, asshole. You were there when I couldn't be.

[baruthumos]

Omega looks away from her. "That's about all I did. The bare minimum. If I hadn't thrown the Counselor out, well. It was bad, but I don't wonder if there weren't times later that were worse."

He kicks the table leg. "You were taken. You weren't there to see just how bad Delta and I did back then. It's nothing to be proud of."

[soldierinblack]

"You did what you could. And you don't even know if there's something I could have done to stop leaving." Neither does she, but that's besides the point. Her eyes are following Theta as she skates down one of the park's paths.

"They came out all right, so you must have done something well."

[baruthumos]

Omega doesn't know how to answer to that. Because of course his brothers and Eta turned out well, he can't deny that. They're the best.

So instead, he shrugs and says, "You know what counts as a good day at home? When we have enough food that I get to eat twice."

[soldierinblack]

"I can chip in," she replies. "I've got money and have only had myself to spend it on until recently. You don't need to starve yourself."

[baruthumos]

"Oh, it was just an example," Omega says. "We make do now."

How, he's not sure. Coupons, probably. Sigma and Epsilon eat more out of the house now. They don't have a lot, but they have enough.

[soldierinblack]

"Let me help," she says with a sigh. "I might not be staying with you guys, but I'm not looking to just meet up for play dates once a month and pretend I'm in your lives."

[baruthumos]

"We don't need help," Omega says quietly. "Like I said. We get by. I can take care of them."

Which is a slight exaggeration, but he's not going to get them dependent on her help so she can disappear and leave them worse off.

[soldierinblack]

"Then why the hell am I here?" she demands bluntly. "If you're not even going to try to treat me like part of the family then why are we bothering with this?"

She had told him she'd try and he agreed that would be enough, not that he would smack away all attempts to help.

[baruthumos]

"Because you wanted to be part of the family," Omega snaps. "This is being part of the family. I take care of them, Delta takes care of them, we're the ones who threw out the Counselor, we're the ones who take responsibility."

Well, he never said this would be easy. Told her the exact opposite, in fact. And he can't take her help, not when she doesn't know how much they need. It's too tempting to abuse the offer.

"We don't ask Sigma, we don't ask Epsilon. That's what being part of the family means."

[soldierinblack]

"And where does that leave me?" she snaps back. She doesn't know what the hell he wants her to do if not help.

"Do you want me standing on the sidelines and watching you struggle and talk about how you can't afford to put feed yourself while I have the money to help?"

[baruthumos]

"I told you we're doing better," Omega insists, grabbing the edge of the table. "You know who throws money at us, pretends like that's help? Our parents. We don't need money, we need..."

Omega shakes his head. They need money. Or goods and services that money can be exchanged for. There's a few things he can think of, though.

"Eta needs someone to teach her how to be a girl, so she'll at least have the option. Iota needs someone to listen when he talks. Theta needs help with his homework. Gamma needs ... I don't know what Gamma needs, he lies so much. Sigma needs people to stop leaving. Epsilon needs to leave. Delta needs someone to tell him he's doing a good job without him asking."

It pours out him like a torrent, and he cuts himself off. "You want to just drop in and be handed a list of problems to solve? There you go. You want to help? Pick something."

The table is bolted to the ground. A shame, Omega would have found great satisfaction in using it for punctuation.

[soldierinblack]

"I'm fucking here aren't I?" she spits out. "I'm not throwing money at you so I can walk away guilt-free. I'm offering it if you need it and I already told you I'm not planning to skip town the first chance I get."

That list though? Helps. Somewhat. It's a list of personal things she can assist with or at least try to, but she can't help but notice one name is missing at the end there.

"What do you need, Omega?"

[baruthumos]

"I don't need anything," Omega lies, folding his arms before he tries to flip the table despite the bolt. "Maybe to borrow some equipment later. But I'm fine."

[soldierinblack]

She snorts as she stares him down. "I don't know why you're so damn afraid to ask for help."

[baruthumos]

"I am not afraid." It will take more than Tex to make him back down in public, in front of the littles. "I ask for help when I need it. I just don't need it."

[soldierinblack]

"Don't ignore a resource when you have it," she replies and pushes off from the table. If Omega's going to be pissed, she's going to run around with the twins for a while to let him calm down.

[baruthumos]

Omega does not need help. But Theta might, so he's going to go check on the grape. Just in case.